Sometimes I get lost in the sea of emotions within my body and brain. Sometimes I do not know how to feel. Obviously, happiness is always the goal. But, occasionally I falter.
I slip into something dark, depressed. I feel different. I don’t feel like myself. I get a weird feeling emanating within my body. Anxiety creeps up. It arises from different sources. Negative thoughts, reliving a past memory, or even something as simple as a bad day at work.
I find myself sitting in my room listening to music, instead of enjoying the beautiful weather outside. On these particular days, sad music always seems to help.
It seems counter-productive. Shouldn’t I listen to upbeat music to get out of my funk?
In the sea of emotions, sad music seems to calm me down. It helps me think, assess, and evaluate. It makes me feel like I am not going through this alone. Recently, I connected with “That Power” by Childish Gambino.
“I like you and you like me and I more-than-like you, but I don’t know if you do or don’t more-than-like me. You’ve never said, so I haven’t been saying anything all summer, content to enjoy the small miracle of a girl choosing to talk to me and choosing to do so again the next day and so on. A girl who’s smart and funny and who, if I say something dumb for a laugh, is willing to say something two or three times as dumb to make me laugh, but who also gets weird and wise sometimes in a way I could never be.” – Childish Gambino
This little blurb does not do justice to the entire story, but it summarizes my thoughts and feelings quite nicely.
I hate to admit it, but I have girl problems. It seems like I always have girl problems. Girls are just always on my mind. Although, recently, just one. She takes up all my mental energy.
I don’t know if she likes me. She has never said it. But I definitely feel it. Or maybe I am delusional. I’m not too sure anymore.
Music Taps into our Emotions
Have you ever listened to a piece of music and smiled? Or felt sad? Whether from the music itself, or from our associations with the music, music taps into our emotional systems.
I listen to “Don’t Worry, Be Happy” by Bob Marley and ease drifts into my body. No matter how bad a situation may be, it is always important to remember to be happy. It temporarily soothes my mind from the aching thoughts that arises on occasion.
Many people use this in a therapeutic way, listening to certain music that makes them feel a certain way.
Suddenly, I do not feel as alone. Someone else is experiencing what I am.
Use Music As a Cure to the Brain
It is hard to find perspective in my brain when it is clouded with thoughts. It is hard to single out something and think about it. Often, multiple thoughts arise and battle for domination.
Listening to sad music puts things into perspective. It helps me sort my thoughts and focus on one. People have girl problems. It is just a part of life.
Use music as a stepping-stone. Learn, heal and progress through your strife.
I often find myself in the same position time and time again. But this time will be different. This time I have music as an ally, helping me fight against my brain voice.
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