The Girl Across The Street

Yesterday, I hung out with an old friend. I haven’t seen her since February and it was a delight. Truthfully speaking, I had a huge crush on her.

We went on a few dates and things just fizzled out. Initially, I was devastated. Before seeing her, I had a fear that those feelings might resurface. I might be stuck in an emotional rut as soon as I saw her.

I think I’m growing up. I saw her and everything went well. Those feelings that I was afraid off – they resurfaced – I dealt with them.

Let Me Backtrack

I had a crush on her because she was pretty much everything I wanted. She embodied the qualities I held most dear, we have amazing conversations, and she is beautiful.

I am the type of person that will always hold feelings, deep inside, for the people I like. The feelings just hide away. When I saw her yesterday, those feelings came out guns-blazing, but they were manageable.

Girls have always occupied a huge portion of my mental and physical energy. I’ve never really had great luck in the whole relationship category. It has always been hard for me to let go of past relationships.

Call it love?

I don’t know what it was. I don’t really understand what love is. Have I felt it? Maybe once? Maybe I’m just convincing myself of love. Or maybe, just maybe, I did feel it?

The Girl Across the Street

I fell hard and fast. It hit me like a brick wall hit Will E. Coyote. From the moment I saw her I was captivated. She also embodied everything I ever wanted.

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We got our feelings out. For a while I thought it was ACTUALLY going to work. Long story, short, it didn’t.

Surprisingly enough, it didn’t affect me as much as I thought it would. I was an emotional rollercoaster for about 3 hours. I decided that it couldn’t affect me. There are too many priorities.

There are too many important things to worry about.

A Limited Amount of Energy

Do you spend it worrying about girls? Bills? Gossip? Work drama? I spent it on a whole lot of nonsense. I squandered it away, day-by-day, wallowing in my own self-pity.

That was a huge waste of mental energy. If I knew what I know now, back when I was 16, my life would have been different. Then again, I am a stronger person because of my 16-year-old experiences.

It makes me feel like the perfect girl is somewhere out there. But also, it makes me feel like there isn’t just one. In fact, I know that there are at least two that are out there right now. I know because I met them already.

I feel a sense of ease with that thought. Sure, it didn’t work out. But it allows me to continue on with my life, knowing that somewhere out there, there are multiple perfect girls for me.

I know that I do not have to spend the mental energy wallowing when something does not work out. I know that I will be okay.

What do you choose to spend the energy on? You have a finite amount of energy every single day. I urge you to stop squandering it, like I have, and start improving your life.

Move forward for the all petty things taking over your life and spend that valuable energy on yourself. Use it to constantly and never-endingly improve.

For the first time, I experienced ‘love at first sight.’ Was it meant to be? I guess not. But it’s nice to know that it wasn’t the end of the world.

Be bold, be free, and love on.

How To Do Heroin Legally

When I got laser eye surgery, the specialist gave me Percocet for the pain. Percocet is an opiate and similar to heroin.

I was in a happy glaze. I felt like I was floating without a care in the world. Then two things happened. First, the Percocet wore off and I felt everything, all in one painful surge.

Second, I called the optometrist and demanded more Percocet. “It’s extremely addictive,” he said. “Don’t worry about that,” I said. Still though, no more Percocet.

Percocet, like heroin, releases endorphins (shortened term for endogenous morphine). Endorphins are basically heroin, but it occurs naturally. No need for needles, pills or anything.

Percocet is terrible for liver, but this endogenous morphine. It’s interesting. It’s considered a ‘happy’ hormone, so imagine releasing it progressively throughout the day.

The Approach

There always seems to be some mention of a girl in my articles. This particular girl I’ve seen at the gym. She’s beautiful and Spanish. All week, I convinced myself to talk to her and backed out at the last moment.

I kicked myself in the ass. Finally, on Friday I talked to her. We had a great conversation, but with my bad luck, this was her last day in Canada (she was trying to learn English), and she was moving back to Costa Rica FOREVER (I got her Costa Rican phone number).

Even with the terrible news, I came out of that situation with a high. I’ve never done heroin (I hate needles), but, after the conversation, it felt euphoric. I found myself in the same happy daze that the Percocet gave me.

Were these endorphins? Most likely. I love that feeling. That feeling of accomplishment, of worthiness, of confidence.

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That feeling is still in my body, several days later. I still feel like I am on a high.

Apparently one way to trigger endorphins is under extreme stress. Endorphins are released and produce a high that reduces stress. For instance, you can survive in the jungle when the lion is chasing you.

The same phenomenon occurs for “Runner’s High.” You start running or exercising and just before the point of exhaustion, you get a sudden burst of energy to keep going.

So how do you naturally produce heroin:

A) Stress yourself out with a timeframe

Put a time limit on the stress factor. The final moments before I actually approached the girl, I said to myself, “I will talk to that girl in five minutes!”

As the seconds passed, the stress increased. But on the fourth minute, I felt a warm energy circulating around my body. I felt like a different person, a more energized person.

So next time you have to ask your boss for a raise or ask that girl out or speak in public, set a timeframe. Endorphins are released when you stress out. Stress with a time frame and you will feel a surge.

B) Exercise

Exercise releases all your stored energy (glucose) in your body. When you run out of that stored energy, Runner’s high kicks in.

The satisfaction of exercise has amazing benefits to the body (not just in a physical way).

C) Avoid Grains

I’m not going to tell you what to eat. You can eat whatever you want. Personally, I avoid all grains. Grains are essentially glucose, so reduce the grains, reduce the glucose.

If you go to the grocery store, probably 90% of the products have some sort of processed grain product in it.

Since runner’s high comes when you deplete the body of stored glucose, one way to release consistent endorphins would be to reduce the amount of glucose and be more active. Less sugars, less grains, and a little bit of exercise.

D) Sex

Have you noticed when you have some sort of pain that you don’t feel it when you are having sex? Sex is an amazing way to release endorphins.

The people who release happy chemicals during sex are the ones who have sex more.

E) Laughter

It’s not surprise that laughter releases endorphins. Laughter is even sometimes called “inner jogging” (runner’s high). The more you laugh, the more natural heroin in your body.

I watch at least an hour of comedy (usually standup) everyday for that high.

F) Socialize

This used to be hard for me. I wasn’t a very social person. As a kid, you run and climb the jungle gym and play. You scream and laugh.

As an adult, I don’t do that anymore, but I need to start. Socializing releases endorphins.

It makes sense. Who is more likely to catch the lion in the jungle? The individual or the group of people who can work together?

In fact, we started moving up the food chain because we developed social skills. We were given the ability to gossip. Jack could tell Jill that Steve was an okay guy. Suddenly Jack and Steve could hunt together even if they didn’t know each other – simply because Jill was a gossip.

Socializing doesn’t mean going to work-related meetings and networking. Personally, it means playing, sharing, talking, and laughing.

The good thing about endorphins is that it’s completely natural. No needles. No pills. No addiction necessary. What can go wrong if you laugh, play, have sex, socialize, exercise and avoid grains everyday?

Note that money is not mentioned on this list. Money is a byproduct of a healthy life. The way to obtain money is to ensure that everything else is operating at full capacity.

Ergo, more endorphins, more money.

Consistently releasing endorphins will make you happier person overall. You can ignore all the other self-help porn if you just do the above items and release endorphins everyday.

For me, I will continue to talk to girls to preserve this amazing feeling.

Be bold, be free, and love on.

Leap of the Edge

My fears have controlled me for far too long. I let them take over and consume me. Change me into something I do not want to be. I am fearful of failure and judgments, fearful of girls and fearful of the future, to name a few.

Overcoming fear is a hard task. I am scared because I want to be scared. Thinking of all the past moments, my body trembles and my brain delves into multiple terrible scenarios.

Leap. Don’t think about it too much.

Just do it. Jump. Jump of the cliff. I’ve always loved the way cartoon characters run right off cliffs, then look down for a hapless frozen moment before plummeting into the abyss.

That is the boldness I need. That is the strength I need. Slowly, I will build it. Slowly, I will continue to improve.

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A) Fearful of Failure and Judgments

I have a gut-wrenching fear of starting something just to have it crash and burn. Everyone will watch it happen. Everyone will watch me crash like the countless people who tried to fly before the Wright Brothers.

Leap. Don’t think about it too much.

I started a YouTube channel (2HelpfulGuys). I am a terrible actor, but I tried it. I leaped into the abyss. It was terrifying, but fun. I felt a thrill, a thrill I have never felt before.

I got compliments, instead of judgments. It was endearing. I also got two ‘Thumbs Down’ on the video. It hurt for a second, but those people do not matter. There will always be naysayers in your life. There will always be people that will try to push you down, keep you at their level. Ignore them they do not matter.

B) Fearful of Girls

Recently, I feel like I have written about girls a lot. There is a reason, I will elaborate later. But, I feel like I will never understand girls. Yet, I love them. They keep on my toes, push me to limits and challenge me.

Leap. Don’t think about it too much.

Recently, one girl in particular made me leap. I jumped off that cliff, burst my protective bubble and showed her a glimpse of what ‘Leroy’ is.

I crashed and burned. But, that is okay. I did it. I leaped. I opened myself up. I shared. I explored. I laughed. I smiled. I learned.

I learned something incredibly valuable. Sometimes, you need to crash and burn. You need to make mistakes. The leap was more satisfying than I could have ever dreamt off. It shadowed the minor failure. It is okay to crash and burn.

I feel like there are ill feelings between the two of us. I hope I am wrong.

C) Fearful of the Future

I have so many goals for myself. Sometimes, I think they are unrealistic, but that is not the right attitude. I can achieve anything that I want. I know I can. You can achieve anything you want. It’s important to believe that.

A wise friend explained to me that there are three different types of people in California:

1) The person that goes and falls flat and fails,

2) The person that goes and barely scrapes by, and

3) The person that goes and makes it big

Why am I mentioning this? Well, my best friend and I are planning on moving to California as early as January 2016. I do not want to fall in the first two categories. I am deathly afraid of the future.

Leap. Don’t think about it too much.

Still, I must go. I must prove something to myself. This will be the biggest leap I will have to make. This will be a life-changing leap. You cannot be afraid of the future. Being afraid will continue to hinder your abilities and aspirations.

Leaps of faith are necessary to learn, grow and change. They are needed to progress and evolve.

For me, even publically stating my fears is a leap of faith. Do it now. I did it. You have to. List your fears. But remember,

Leap. Don’t think about it too much.